Out of the blues

I haven't written a word in two weeks, but today I needed to write.  I was in a bit of a funk.  Actually, it was more than a "bit" of a funk.  Part of last week and the first of this week, I was in such a state that I was ready to quit my job, not just quit but walk out.  To do what?  Well, write, if the right opportunity came along.  But, do nothing was looking good.  Besides, as writers know, helping to feed your family when you are just starting out isn't too likely anyway.  My mood was pretty dark, and I wasn't feeling very happy in a general way.  As it would turn out, I had a church board meeting on Tuesday. (I'm on the board of LWCC, check us out if you get the chance!)  We were talking about where all of the board members are spiritually, and what one dear friend of mine said helped to adjust my mindset.  Without divulging too much, let's just say that this person has so much on her plate that anyone who was under this much pressure would break, if it were not for God's help.  She basically stated that she surrendered her problems to God and asked His wisdom about how to handle it all, and in the end, she found the kind of peace only He can give.  Her words were a reminder to me that I am not the one in control here and that I needed to give all of my own stresses over to God to handle--the kids (grades, weight issues, teen-stuff, etc.), the husband (who's job keeps him away from home most evenings), the job (UGH!), and even the stresses of my church.  So, I did, and what do you know?  Suddenly I'm feeling a bit better.  Maybe I'm finally headed out of the blues.

Maybe I'm Still Tired, But...

It may be that I am STILL tired, but there have been a few recent situations that have done nothing but irritate me.  First, without providing specific details, is my work.  I work for a small company in a small office.  Most of the time this has some good perks to it.  Other times, well, not so much.  We've been busy (a positive in this economy), but when your boss wastes time, and I'm talking hours a day here, reviewing the same topics over and over with no conclusions, it gets a bit frustrating.  We bust our buns to get our work done, which is challenge enough.  Then we spend time we don't have in meetings that aren't necessary.  Anyone else feel the pain?  I know this type of thing happens just about everywhere one can work.  However, though not new, still very annoying.  It has been exacerbated lately by a specific problem for which the two principal parties offer NO solution and just continue to joust at one another.  All the while the office is in a holding pattern waiting for the match to be over so we can accomplish the work about which they are arguing.

On the personal side, I found out today that a family member passed away.  He was a great-uncle (read: we weren't close) and 101 years old.  So while I am sad, I am more sad for my grandmother and the rest of the family in their loss of a brother, father, etc.  That being said, and I don't want to forget that his death is the big picture, I found this out via a trail I won't follow here.  Let's just say that the person who knew should NEVER have known before actual family (i.e., my sister and I) were notified.  I'm not sure why we still haven't been told, but I don't appreciate it, and am actually rather angry and upset at the people who chose this method of "getting the word out."  We'll have our conversation soon.

So maybe I'm just still tired, but I'm not the only one upset by both situations.  For once, it's not just me.